Out of the darkness
God used CPC to provide a little bit of light to help Michelle out of the darkness and keep her from making a horrible decision.
When I found out I was pregnant, I was terrified. I did not have the support of my child’s father. He was adamant about me getting an abortion. He made it clear that he didn’t want a child or anything to do with it. I knew for myself that it wasn’t something I preferred, but I wanted to have options.
When I was 12, I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome, and every doctor told me I wouldn’t be able to have children. As a preteen growing into an adult, that used to hurt me and made me feel “less than.” I used to pray to God to “fix me” because I’d always wanted to be able to bear children.
I went on Google one night after work and typed in “abortion clinics” and “pregnancy centers.” I looked through each option and came across CPC’s pregnancy medical clinics. It was already around 9:00 p.m., so, when I filled out the contact section, they gave me a call and scheduled a next-day appointment.
When I got to CPC’s pregnancy medical clinic and had my consultation and ultrasound, the technician told me [it was too early to see the baby]. I cried so hard, unable to get words out. I was distraught and felt broken.
A staff member came over and hugged me and asked why I was crying. It was a pain I’d never experienced before. I knew in my heart right then that I couldn’t terminate the pregnancy.
I got my next ultrasound done at another local medical clinic, and that’s when I could see him and it became real. I was prepared to raise my baby on my own; I knew my child deserved a chance.
When I was pregnant and found out I was having a boy, I was so scared because boys are so curious about everything. But I love every single moment—from the slobbery kisses, achieving new milestones, him developing his personality, and more. I have somebody that I can pour my love into. My son has given me the purpose that I felt I was missing. When I wake up every day, I try to figure out ways to be a better person for myself and to be a better mom for him.
CPC saved me from making one of the most horrible decisions. It really opened my eyes. I needed a little bit of light to get out of the darkness, and it really gave me that light, and I haven’t been back in the darkness since.
God taught me that my child and I deserved a chance. He showed me, even in my season of darkness, that I had to push through to get to the light. He showed me that I wasn’t alone, and He was there each step of my journey.
Testimony edited for brevity and clarity.